Time to be fierce

Where has my determination and disgust towards food gone? I have given in way too easily again today. I don't even know how many calories I have had but I expect it's a lot.
I went out into town with my friend and we ended up having lunch in a restaurant that is basically all you can eat, I tried to be healthy but there was so much food there that I used to love and I gave in. I don't understand how one day at my dad's house has ruined my will power completely. I really need to step up here and sort myself out, I can't keep going on like this.

That's it no more food. I've had enough of it and I don't need it. If my stomach wants food it can have water instead because I am so angry at myself and my body that I don't want to allow myself to have food anymore. I don't see the point in actually eating anything even though I clearly still give in.
My stomach thankfully is still flat but I don't know what I weigh I'm still too scared to find out.
Tonight there shall be no more food to pass my lips and I shall carry this on tomorrow, so much so that I'm sure I'll get to the point where I will probably be very dizzy and weak much more than I have ever felt before but it's okay...this is what I want.

Food is the enemy, it creates fat that hangs off my bones like a parasite and it makes me upset.
It's disgusting. I'm disgusting for eating. No more of this greedy behaviour. If anyone challenges me with food I shall just walk away. Tell these evil people who make me eat that I have no desire for the horrible treats they offer me.
I think better of myself to put these horrific things into my body. I don't even want to eat salad now that's how angry at myself I am right now.

Failure is no option.
Success is the only thing I'll accept